In my early blogging years I used to write most of my post at this time.... Yes, right... At early morning... After a sleepless night... I am recalling that old habit today...
I refused to myself to write this post... But suddenly, I refuse to refuse.... Let me go with it... Let me write some craps today again... Like old times...
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When I was with her... She was my world... Suddenly everything collapsed... Suddenly is a wrong word maybe... As I later discovered it was actually a gradual process... But, what the heck! I felt it suddenly.. And that is what counts!
Later while I am no longer with her many many unfulfilled wishes have been coming to my mind... Sometimes continuously, sometimes with a break... I don't want to say these things to her... But I definitely want to spill it out... Let's count!
She is an artist... She is a master painter... She loves to work with water color, oil painting and so on... I always wanted her to paint me in one of her canvases.. This never happened actually... I also never asked her to do it... Well, if I have to ask her to do this, then, what's the point of the whole thing!?
Walking on the beach during sunset... Did I ever mention I am from a coastal area? Well, it's 30 mins ride to beach from my home.. And it's 3:30 hours ride to the world's largest beach from my home... People come to visit it from around the world.. She is just from another city of Bangladesh... So, she visited it too... But I never had the chance to meet her on the beach... I never had the chance to walk with her on the beach, hold her hands and see the sun go down... I wanted my kiss to her to follow the sunset... But haha... These things never happened... Infact nothing close to these things ever happened.... Well, I did see her picture on the beach walking joyously with another person... The picture was publicly shared on that person's Facebook profile... Probably that's her new peer... But who cares! It's not me! So... It's not us anymore... It's them!
I wanted to have a long drive with her... Like from Dhaka to Chittagong.... Preferably a train journey... Nope! Never happened...
I always wanted to see her face to face that how she looks in Sharee... Infact, I expressed this wish to her... Nope again! Never happened... She said, "It's a dress to wear in occasion". Yah, a good one.
I wanted her to wake me up from sleep... In person... I wanted her as the first person I see after I wake up... At least once... Well, it wasn't possible actually...
I wanted her to give me surprises on my birthdays.... LOL...! No! Never happened... Though she got only two of them! :P
Well... There are some others like these... And many others I don't even remember...
I have many fulfilled wishes with her too! Not feeling that romantic today to write about them... I guess my today's emo is: :(
I sound like a loser.. Ain't I? Haha... At this stage of life I am writing this teenage craps... So what!? It's my blog.. I write whatever I want! Even though I embarras myself! Again.. Who cares!! I don't... If you do.. Hide your laughter! :P
May you live happily ever after with your Flynn Ryder!! ;-)
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I refused to myself to write this post... But suddenly, I refuse to refuse.... Let me go with it... Let me write some craps today again... Like old times...
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When I was with her... She was my world... Suddenly everything collapsed... Suddenly is a wrong word maybe... As I later discovered it was actually a gradual process... But, what the heck! I felt it suddenly.. And that is what counts!
Later while I am no longer with her many many unfulfilled wishes have been coming to my mind... Sometimes continuously, sometimes with a break... I don't want to say these things to her... But I definitely want to spill it out... Let's count!
She is an artist... She is a master painter... She loves to work with water color, oil painting and so on... I always wanted her to paint me in one of her canvases.. This never happened actually... I also never asked her to do it... Well, if I have to ask her to do this, then, what's the point of the whole thing!?
Walking on the beach during sunset... Did I ever mention I am from a coastal area? Well, it's 30 mins ride to beach from my home.. And it's 3:30 hours ride to the world's largest beach from my home... People come to visit it from around the world.. She is just from another city of Bangladesh... So, she visited it too... But I never had the chance to meet her on the beach... I never had the chance to walk with her on the beach, hold her hands and see the sun go down... I wanted my kiss to her to follow the sunset... But haha... These things never happened... Infact nothing close to these things ever happened.... Well, I did see her picture on the beach walking joyously with another person... The picture was publicly shared on that person's Facebook profile... Probably that's her new peer... But who cares! It's not me! So... It's not us anymore... It's them!
I wanted to have a long drive with her... Like from Dhaka to Chittagong.... Preferably a train journey... Nope! Never happened...
I always wanted to see her face to face that how she looks in Sharee... Infact, I expressed this wish to her... Nope again! Never happened... She said, "It's a dress to wear in occasion". Yah, a good one.
I wanted her to wake me up from sleep... In person... I wanted her as the first person I see after I wake up... At least once... Well, it wasn't possible actually...
I wanted her to give me surprises on my birthdays.... LOL...! No! Never happened... Though she got only two of them! :P
Well... There are some others like these... And many others I don't even remember...
I have many fulfilled wishes with her too! Not feeling that romantic today to write about them... I guess my today's emo is: :(
I sound like a loser.. Ain't I? Haha... At this stage of life I am writing this teenage craps... So what!? It's my blog.. I write whatever I want! Even though I embarras myself! Again.. Who cares!! I don't... If you do.. Hide your laughter! :P
May you live happily ever after with your Flynn Ryder!! ;-)
[Photo Credit: Zavtaski]
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Amazing post! It made me sad. But life is full of surprises. Remember the good memories and forget the bad ones. I wish you all the best. :)
ReplyDeleteYes, self motivation is part of life.... Thanks!
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